Exhausted Is An Understatement

I'm exhausted. I used to hear moms with babies that were a few months older than mine talk about how tired they were. I'd sit there and think- gosh, I'm not very tired. Guess what, I now know what they are talking about. I guess sleeping two and three hour stretches for five months has finally started to catch up to me.

I just remind myself- this all is temporary and will change sooner than later. A few months ago there was another mom-blogger's post circulating calling carpe diem a farce. I see where she is coming from and always have, but even in my exhausted state, I still disagree with her. My husband and I have looked at each other while our son was in the midst of a meltdown and reminded each other that this is not what we'll look back at an remember about him being a baby. Same thing goes for my exhaustion.

The Bridget Jones of mommyhood

In my single years, I would joke that I was just like Bridget Jones. This was particularly true on days when something didn't match (read tights that I thought were black and really were navy) or I was disheveled in some way. Now as a mom, I fit this to a T. Although I am not single and in my 30s, my days seem to be like hers- always a goal in mind and not really making much progress. I mean, I do get things done, but even the simplest of tasks seems to take me a while. Sigh. And I'm always in some state of disheveled- totally accept it as normal now.

I am a text book career woman- moved through undergrad and grad by time I was 24 and was excited to take my first full time position. I've loved most moments of my work life and identify strongly with my career. Of course life happened and I found myself in my 30s somewhat newly married and ready to have a family. Me? Really! So here I am a working mom. I love being a mom- no doubt about that, but I also love working, so I do. I don't feel guilty and hate that some women think that I should. Either way- I decided that I wanted to record my experience as a working mom. My son is 5 months now and I've been back to work for 2 1/2 months. So here goes!